Monday, December 12, 2005

JIANG Zi-Ya (JIANG Tai-Gong) goes fishing ...


There was once a tale of a legendary master sage named Jiang Tai-Gong, who fishes with a short pole, a long line, a straight hook with no bait. Legend has it that he went fishing every day of his life up to a ripe old age of 80 plus, losing almost every material things and even his wife, but he continue waiting for someone to bite. He always remarked that 'Come and get caught if you so desire ...'
He knows of two things .. the person he's waiting for will come, and he will find his life purpose thereafter.
While most people will look at the story on the person who comes along to be caught, I found it more interesting to consider the fact that Jiang Zi-Ya has absolute conviction to wait for his destiny. His conviction guides him to continue to perform an impossible task that draw ridicule from everyone he know. He forsakes everything material including his wife to wait for his destiny.

JIANG Tai-Gong went on fight alongside the founders of the Zhou Dynasty and become the Prime Minister.

I wonder if I have that conviction .. (I need that conviction!) .., perhaps what I lack is the clear sign to know what I should be waiting for ...

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

The year 2005 ... (as seen in 1986)

I stumbled upon this excerpt from the original Transformer movie description from IMDb ... they have high expectation on 2005 twenty years ago. Where are you Optimus Prime ...

The Transformers: The Movie
Original Release Date: August 8, 1986
Rhino Home Video
ISBN # 1-56605-672-1
Director: Nelson Shin
Runtime: 1hr 24min 36sec

IMDb Quote:
It is the year 2005. The war between The Autobots and Decepticons has escalated all the way to Cybertron, which the Decepticons have reclaimed. The Autobots, without Optimus Prime after a conflict on Earth takes his life, must now face a destiny they know nothing of. Megatron and a group of forsaken Decepticons have been reformed by the ultimate transformer, a planet consuming demon known as Unicron into even deadlier warriors. Now Galvatron, Scourge and Cyclonus must destroy The Autobot Matrix of Leadership for Unicron's glory or suffer the horrific destruction of Cybertron. However, Optimus Prime has decreed that an Autobot will rise from his rank and use the power of The Matrix to light the darkest hour of the Autobots. With Hot Rod facing responsibility for Prime's death, he feels he may be able to use the power of the Matrix to turn the tide of the Cybertronian Wars and stop Unicron. Until all are one, the future of the Autobots and Decepticons is uncertain.

Insanity ...

I've just found out the definition of insanity .. First, you make yourself a strong mug of coffee just after midnight - then, you take your sleeping pills. Thereafter, you just wait ...

Tuesday, December 06, 2005


If you give me a fucking ticket, I'll have your job ...

New line of washing machines ... Specially designed for hobbits ...

If I don't park at the designated lots ... where the fuck should I park?

Weird picture ... not sure why the warped effect ...

The Tungsten T in pieces ...

Sunday, December 04, 2005

The palm is gone ...

My Tungsten T is finally done for ... my son decided to take the palm into the shower.

Somebody give me a break ...

I need some good luck to come my way - this has not been a happy part of my life. It seems like when things start to become better, someone upstairs decides to fuck it up a bit ... Come on! I haven't been that bad in my life, pick on someone else!

Friday, December 02, 2005

Letter to mum .. (from guy in pix)


Letter to mum from guy in pic ... "Dear ma ma, I have finalllee got to Kuala Lumpur and doing realllie good. I am in the fashion industry, they put me in charge of the very important task of logistics - I help them manage the inventory. Sometimes, during an emergency, I have been given the resposibility to secure the stock for a quick relocation. Ma, I hope you are fine - do look out for the package that I've sent you. Every week I am allowed to take one item for home, so I hope you will enjoy the Guy Lacroach handbag and also the FENLI shoes." ...

251kph ...


251 km/hr ... that would be so cool, but ... somehow the Garmin thing is screwed and probably got it wrong ... I was no way at 251kph - just aroung 160kph ...

Running on empty ...


That all I have left for now ...

Water woes ...


You want to know why a fucking big pail? ... Some asshole decided to cut up the highway and burst a pipe ...

Badman ...


You want a piece of Me ? ...

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Yahoo vs Google ...

It seems like Yahoo! is discriminating against Google ... up until recently I never gave too much thoughts to Yahoo! Mail filtering of Google's mail as Spam. I've always found my Blogger's notification mail in my Yahoo! Mail's junk mail folder. I then did some experimentation and send to my yahoo mail address things like blogger's notification, google mail invites, google mail registration notices, etc - surprisingly all these mail originating from Google end up in my Junk folder without fail.

If you want to help me clarify this, try sending a google mail invite to a yahoo address or, set your blogger blog to notify you of new postings to a yahoo mail, or just sign up for google mail - see if you experience the same.

PS: Those who do not have a google mail account and want an invite, just leave me your email address in the comments section and I'll send you one.

Streamyx is dead ...

Streamyx died on me today. One whole day later and it is still not fixed. The major pain is that you know that you are at the mercy of some idiot that can't even pass a driving licence test because they can't read the letters during the eye test. May TM fucking rot in hell ...

PS: I wish I don't have to use the 'F' word all the time, I'd really would like to have Google Adsense for this blog. Well, if they don't allow any swearing ... they can just Kiss-My-Ass. !!

Monday, November 21, 2005

You choose your own poison.

Moving from my current sleeping pills to the much stronger Valium.

Now I just need to find a supply source...

Monday, October 31, 2005

That time of the month ...

When will this cycle end ... Getting sick and tired of measuring and managing my life based on a month-to-month basis.
The whole system is screwed - seems like my life is getting more meaningless and in some cases it is almost like it's in reverse development.

Dare I change this? Should I change this?

Friday, October 28, 2005

My Birthday ...

Today is my 33rd birthday - Could this be the start of better things? Life's been a bitch lately and hopefully this will be the begining of a new stage in my life. Can't wait for the new year to begin ...

Monday, October 17, 2005

Desperation .. Frustration .. And a sense of Futility ... This is a most challenging situation at this point of my life. I thought i tried hard to make life the best that I can. While, things has gone pretty well in the past - career-wise, job-wise, personal-income, etc - now, in a quick 12 months, all have gone crashing down on me. WTF ...

Sunday, October 16, 2005

It is sad that everytime I'm compelled to blog about anything, it's always for something bad ... Those who read this blog will know my feeling for the human race. Today marked another day that the human race has gone as far as we can and it's time to end it. I always believe that we are measured not by the best of us but rather, by the worst of us. I was trying to have a good day out on a Sunday, traffic was relaxed and there is really no need for any stress. Long story short, a fucking idiot driving a van crossed my path and makes me want to commit total genocide. For all those who care, take arms now and start cleansing the human race. If those of us who deserve to perpetuate start getting rid of those who don't, we may just stand a chance. Either way, WE ARE FUCKED!

Wednesday, September 28, 2005


The Lantis needed a lift ...

Traffic lights on a round-a-bout? ...

Spot the dummy ... Is it a man on stilts, or a cardboard cut-out of a man? What the fuck were they thinking?

Pic from Aquaria in KLCC-CC - What a disappointment! Paid around 60 bucks to get in and there is really not much to shout about.

Somebody need to go back to school ...

A rare night out in Bangsar ...

Tech graveyard ...

The pic ain't great but it's hard to take a shot while driving. That's my GPS device and it tracked my max speed at 165km/hr - this is the fastest that I've ever been in my truck.

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

Name change ...

This blog has been renamed to 'Serenity ...' in honour of the fantastic TV Series which was FireFly. They are finally making a movie on the series and hopefully it'll either tie up some loose ends or it may be the revival of the series ...

Sunday, September 11, 2005


A funky picture in honor of NY-NY

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

You've got to find what you love ...

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something - your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky – I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me – I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.

Saturday, June 18, 2005


Out with the Old, In with the NEW ... Bridgestones AT Duelers

IN FUCKING BROAD-DAYLIGHT !!!

Fucking blood-sucking sons-of-bitches ... we pay the price for the wrong-doings of a minority of the people - and this is because the law-enforcers can't fucking implement the law !!!

Pop-quiz ... a) He will walk over and explain the finer details of the traffic lights rule and advise the road user to be better the next time and then let him go ... b) He apologies for pulling him over due to a mistake that he has made .. c) Kk-cchhhiinngg !!

It turns 100000 on 20050616
Oath of Knighthood

A knight is sworn to valor
His heart knows only virtue
His blade defends the helpless
His might upholds the weak
His words speaks only truth
His wrath undoes the wicked
The Hippocratic Oath

I swear by Apollo Physician, by Aesculapius, by Health, by Heal-all, and by all the gods and goddesses, making them witnesses, that I will carry out, according to my ability and judgment, this oath and this indenture: To regard my teacher in this art as equal to my parents; to make him partner in my livelihood, and when he is in need of money to share mine with him; to consider his offspring equal to my brothers; to teach them this art, if they require to learn it, without fee or indenture; and to impart precept, oral instruction, and all the other learning, to my sons, to the sons of my teacher, and to pupils who have signed the indenture and sworn obedience to the physicians' Law, but to none other. I will use treatment to help the sick according to my ability and judgment, but I will never use it to injure or wrong them. I will not give poison to anyone though asked to do so, nor will I suggest such a plan. Similarly I will not give a pessary to a woman to cause abortion. But in purity and in holiness I will guard my life and my art. I will not use the knife on sufferers from stone, but I will give place to such as are craftsmen therein. Into whatsoever houses I enter, I will do so to help the sick, keeping myself free from all intentional wrongdoing and harm, especially from fornication with woman or man, bond or free. Whatsoever in the course of practice I see or hear (or even outside my practice in social intercourse) that ought never to be published abroad, I will not divulge, but consider such things to be holy secrets. Now if I keep this oath, and break it not, may I enjoy honor, in my life and art, among all men for all time; but if I transgress and forswear myself, may the opposite befall me.

Monday, May 30, 2005

Betrayal ...

It's been a while since I last blogged .. if only I can do audio blogs ..

Been having a lot of things on my mind, but most disturbing (more like dissapointing) event happened last week (week of 23rd May). Events of the week left me with a bad taste of humankind especially those who I call friends at the workplace. While I may be the one to blame for thinking that my 'friends' will have my back - I would never have expected to be stabbed in the back by my so called friends.
Made me think of the phrase, "You will never be betrayed by your enemy - since you won't trust them in the first place".

What's more sad is that the behaviour and actions of these people gave me even more reason to think that some people should just stop living ...

More thoughts on the same:

"You know your enemy, do you know your friends?"

Sunday, May 08, 2005


This is the closest that I will go with putting a photo of myself on this blog ...

I am not sure what is more stupid .. me trying to red-line my truck aka shopping-cart-of-a-car or, me taking a photo while doing it ...

Monday, April 25, 2005

Coffee Drinks for the essentialists

Brewed - traditional American-style coffee, percolated, steeped, dripped, or pressed.
Espresso - pressure-brewed one cup at a time through 2oz of ultra-fine grounds.
Cappuccino - espresso, hot milk & froth in equal parts (sometimes sugar added).
Caffe Latte - espresso, hot milk & froth (milk in greater proportion than coffee).
Caffe Mocha - espresso, chocolate & hot milk in equal parts (sometimes whipped cream on top).
Café au Lait (or Café con Leche) - brewed coffee & warmed or steamed milk (milk in greater proportion than coffee).
Demitasse - a small cup the size of a single espresso drink.
Mocha Latte - espresso, chocolate, hot milk & froth in equal parts.
Lungo - normal espresso, but with 4oz of grounds (called an extended espresso).
Double - double water and double grounds - two drinks-worth in one cup.
Con Panna - espresso with dollop of whipped cream.
Espresso Macchiato - espresso with a "stain" of milk.
Latte Macchiato - milk with a "stain" of espresso.
Espresso Granita - espresso frozen, then crushed & topped with whipped cream.
Granita Latte - espresso, milk & sugar; stirred and frozen, then crushed & topped with whipped cream.

* Rule of Thumb - "Café" drinks are generally American-style brewed drinks, while "Caffe" drinks are espresso-based.

(c)1998 R. David Schaefer

Oath of Knighthood

A knight is sworn to valor
His heart knows only virtue
His blade defends the helpless
His might upholds the weak
His words speaks only truth
His wrath undoes the wicked

Sunday, April 24, 2005


I can't decide whether the caption should be : "Stupidity at work" or "Stupid people going to work" ... well, you get the message

What is wrong with this group? Ans: They are related to a stupid driver - I think his brain took the day off as it was Sunday .. He stopped on the left lane of a three-lane road looking to see where he needs to be, with total fucking disregard to other cars ...

This driver is a fucking idiot - she took probably a full brain cycle to decide that she should be turning right ... It doesn't help when her brain cycle is slower than the rate of the turning of her steering wheel ...

The height is human decadence ... this is an SL55 - you can't do too wrong with it. Why can I be as decadent?

Weapons against overflowing shits ...

Ayamas Drummettes ...

Welcome to the Alamanda ... We now know that stupidity is contagious. The Alamanda being so close to Putrajaya (aka .. Central of Stupidity), the practices are just as stupid. Take the parking for example, the cones to the left of the screen is blocking the entrance to the parking area, we are instead shepherded into the exit side. The whole process takes : 8 red-and-white cones, and 13 bumiputras. Kudos to the effort to maintain the employment rate ...

Look at those mugshots - one would think that it's the FBI's Most Wanted ... But, alas, it's just the list of suspended members in this golf club ...

There's no big deal about this picture other than the fact that it shows an error in the camera software .. look for the black spot in the picture where the sun should be ...

ThinkPad went blue again ...

Really old school lift buttons ...

They got the idea ...

It's a massacre ... Got a haircut today ...

This is the infrared port on the ThinkPad ... I didn't know that it pulsates ... For those of you who wants a look, just point your phone camera into the IR port ...

My first taste of sake ...

It's a massacre ...

Blue screen of death brought upon by a football ...

24-hour McD ...

Anchovies from The Champs ...

100% Bullshit!

Good combination ...

The day I bought a new fone ... introducing the K700i ...

The IBM ThinkPad went blue ...