Saturday, October 30, 2004

Thursday, October 28, 2004

My birthday ...

After sending wifey to work today (I didn't have to go to work after quiting my job) - I decided to go shopping for a gift for yours truly. Went to my normal hunting ground looking for a new toy, I have budgeted RM500 for it and started looking around. Sadly, after 2 hours of looking, I decided that the current technology is too lame to even spend a cent on ... as such, no new toy for my birthday! I was very close to getting the xbox but thinking about the amount of guilt that I'll have spending time on the xbox and not my kid kinda stop me from getting it.

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Free bus to Ikano ... Been spending a lot of time there recently.

Tuesday, October 26, 2004

The end of one journey ...

Is there free-will?
Or are we just walking a marked path?

I have always believed in the ability of oneself to determine one's future. It is this very reason that I believe we are the owners of our fate - the opposite is just unfathomable. I believe in free-will ... I want to believe in free-will ...

However, as I grows older and worked the walk of life, I come to experience more and more the sense of futility. If we are not the masters of our fate, and everything is predetermined, then what is our purpose?

Someone asked me of the reason for making the decision I made today - honestly, I've asked myself that as well. It is not so much the draw of the many positives rather I think my decision was more to rebel against what I believe was predetermination. The want for change created the need for change which eventually caused the change ... hmmm this is starting to be really confusing.

By deciding to choose - has one not chosen to decide?

The decision ...

It's been a while since I have to make a decision without some level of certainties as to the outcomes that I want. The decision I have to make today ... (Will place more thoughts here)

Sunday, October 24, 2004

Rocky likes McDonalds ...